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antbites @ 2008-11-06T18:39:00

2008-11-06T23:39:57Z

if anyone reads this just know that life is good. see ya on da flip side.

antbites @ 2008-06-19T11:39:00

2008-06-19T15:40:20Z

so im going on tour today. i hope everyone has a really good month.

antbites @ 2008-06-05T02:12:00

2008-06-05T06:16:04Z

"hi,
ive never wanted to make out
with a girl before but i
really want to make out with you.

your secret admirer."

tonight i saw a girl that i thought was really cute and reminded me a lot of shane from the l word. every time i see her around i get excited and tonight i left a love note on her bike. she just called my phone and i didnt answer.

antbites @ 2008-05-28T15:16:00

2008-05-27T19:21:06Z

I'd say that for someone my age i've made too many mistakes. ive lost people due to my selfishness and carelessness and feel like i continue to. im trying to make it stop but i feel like hardly anyone i surround myself with is positive about my new leaf. instead of people that are encouraging me to rebuild my bridges i feel as if they cant get pass the judging and ridicule of my previous decisions. maybe this too is selfish, but it hurts. it hurts when my best friends dont feel for when i need them the most. ive come to terms with so many of the things i have done wrong but all i want now is some back up. some support during my recovery. sure, maybe recovery is too strong of a word but it sure does get the point across. i want to feel like im a good person again but i cant do it without the help of my friends. guys?

antbites @ 2008-05-26T04:29:00

2008-05-25T08:28:25Z

why do i feel like im losing everyone?

antbites @ 2008-05-18T19:46:00

2008-05-17T23:47:58Z

everything is fucked up and nothing makes sense. everyone is fucked up and no one makes sense. this town is fucked.

antbites @ 2008-04-24T05:25:00

2008-04-24T09:27:19Z

its 5:30 am, i have to be at work by 6 am, and i think that i may have made a very huge mistake. very, very, huge.

antbites @ 2008-04-23T02:50:00

2008-04-23T06:51:06Z

also ive come to terms with the fact that no matter what i do or where i go i'll keep loving casey lee forever. something ill have to deal with through time.

antbites @ 2008-04-23T02:48:00

2008-04-23T06:49:57Z

the one thing that has really stood out since i moved to orlando is that everyone in this town is insanely passive aggressive. its gross.

antbites @ 2008-04-16T19:46:00

2008-04-16T23:47:00Z

i dont know what to do.

antbites @ 2008-03-11T14:35:00

2008-03-11T18:41:41Z

Getting two hours of sleep, waking up in a dark hotel room next to a semi-celeb with a semi, and a tour manager with dark eyebrows yelling on the phone is not the way I want to keep living. Some of my most precious memories are hungover greasy food mornings but as of late, i am so tired i cant keep my eyes open. I'm more nervous than ever and im acquiring new habits. There are some things that only nancy lees house can cure but as it turns out my new room is a pretty close second. i miss a lot of people today.

antbites @ 2008-02-10T02:45:00

2008-02-10T07:45:48Z

Tonight i realized that i wipe with all kinds of crazy things all the time and i cant believe i havent had more yeast infections.

antbites @ 2008-02-06T22:31:00

2008-02-07T03:34:27Z

I'M TAKING A BREAK FROM DRINKING. I HATE MY LIFE AND EVERY TIME I GET SHITFACED I WAKE UP HATING IT MORE. BLACKOUT AFTER BLACKOUT IS ONLY MAKING ME MORE AND MORE CLUELESS AS TO WHERE IM HEADED. HELP ME OUT FRIENDS. AND SLIP ME A COUPLE SIPS IF THE ATMOSPHERE IS RIGHT. YOU'LL KNOW WHEN THAT IS!!!! YOURE MY FRIENDS!!! ALLIE AND NINA AND MELISSA!!!

antbites @ 2008-01-29T21:52:00

2008-01-30T02:52:21Z

antbites @ 2008-01-09T20:27:00

2008-01-10T01:28:20Z

will someone hold me until i fall asleep and not mind that my eyes are closed the entire time or that im imagining that they are someone else? please?

antbites @ 2008-01-01T22:30:00

2008-01-02T03:30:57Z

ive been so miserable the past two days. more so than usual. 2008 will be miserable. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

antbites @ 2007-12-30T22:42:00

2007-12-31T03:42:53Z

just one fucking morning i would like to wake up not tired, not sad, and not bored. nothing feels right.

antbites @ 2007-12-17T07:02:00

2007-12-16T20:58:45Z

i broke up with casey last night. i want to die. im moving to boston on the third instead though.

antbites @ 2007-11-26T20:40:00

2007-11-27T00:45:05Z

a rut.

antbites @ 2007-11-12T18:06:00

2007-11-12T22:13:27Z

I feel trapped and stuck inside of a bubble. I mean, in the nicest and most loving way you can be trapped and stuck inside of a bubble. I'm just starting to get ancy and i need something to change. i dont want to become one of those couples. i dont want to lose touch with people. i dont want to lose him most of all though.

antbites @ 2007-10-31T12:51:00

2007-10-31T17:03:59Z

There is a very good chance that before this week ends something horrible and gruesome will happen to me and most likely i will have caused it myself.

antbites @ 2007-10-21T17:12:00

2007-10-21T21:12:33Z

THE WORLD IS TOO FUCKING SMALL.

antbites @ 2007-10-17T15:57:00

2007-10-17T20:01:27Z

Whenever I sleep too long there always seems to be a dream that is whats keeping me asleep. i wake up totally confused for hours because it feels like i have been in a totally different world for the past 12. I hate it. They arent ever good dreams either.

I'm so ready to get out of here. A week from yesterday is when I leave and a week from today is when ill see everyone. ill only be gone for a week but that one week will be so incredibly refreshing and will hopefully be filled with constant entertainment and beer. I've been down for a couple weeks now for reasons I can hardly explain. Reasons that dont even make sense to me. This one week escape will cure it I am sure.

antbites @ 2007-10-13T01:51:00

2007-10-13T06:03:32Z

i think im getting sick and i just spent 20 dollars in less than an hour on NOTHING. FUCK.

antbites @ 2007-10-04T23:53:00

2007-10-05T03:53:31Z

i miss my boyfriend